just a blank

it was so bad i cannot even begin to tell you how bad it was. ok, fine, maybe i can but i am sure you don't want to know. i had no idea where ALL the places were located coz i didn't even hear what was said. actually contemplated leaving it blank. i never thought i will have to face a day where i actually didn't have ANYTHING to write. i also did not hear the price of the hotel room correctly. all a mumbo-jumbo of numbers. i thought i heard right but no, i think i imagined an extra '5'. i left 3 spaces blank and probably many others wrong. there was too much information in too short a time. i panicked like mad. what do you do when in a listening comprehension you don't even hear what the person says? NOTHING. that's why there were blanks. and the more i think about it, i find out more places where i screwed up. omg, i am so depressed. and i think xm may just be as traumatised as i am. i don't want to hear another word in bahasa indonesia. darn i just typed it out. it is all so damn demoralising. and it compounds with all your other worries, like pers prop. i may just become the first person to fail it. and there is still the incomprehensible assignment to complete. like clt. i think everyone ELSE drinks cheng yus and eats chinese essays for fortification. that can be the only reason why cheng yus and good chinese is spewing out of their ears.


what's wrong with me? can't i do anything right?